ek kudi jeda naam mohabbat..
Looking back at the events that happened post your departure from the confines of our relationship, I really started to glance at things from a fresh perspective. Things change is probably the subtlest way of describing the amount of overhaul that happened inside me as an individual. Definitely an understatement. Little did I know that the void and the noise created in my mind was here to stay forever. I tried a lot. You always knew that I am not one of those who wouldnt. You always knew I hated the gloom and the fact even more that one cannot, at times, step out of it. Realisation is truly a bitch. And the realisation does not limit itself to the fact that you wont be there as you used to, it entails with itself the fact that this is a sojourn without you. I dread that countless such incidents would happen now that will always poke my memory trigger and would compel me to look back and acknowledge your absence from my life.
Why did this happen though, wernt we the kinds that are exemplary? Or were we a bit too smug? I need another lifetime to get all the strings together. Probably I wont even know how to do it all by myself. I am hoping that I may learn that skill as well.
The only thing that lights me up is that the vision that we had for life was complete and satisfying. I dont think there was a thing that we had thought about incompletely and left midway. Sometimes I feel if this was a full circle! No dissappoint or dissatisfaction with you. Somethings are meant to end, but I will always be thankful to my destiny that it gave me you. i do miss you in ways you could never imagine. And I have you with me in ways that no one can ever imagine.
Why did this happen though, wernt we the kinds that are exemplary? Or were we a bit too smug? I need another lifetime to get all the strings together. Probably I wont even know how to do it all by myself. I am hoping that I may learn that skill as well.
The only thing that lights me up is that the vision that we had for life was complete and satisfying. I dont think there was a thing that we had thought about incompletely and left midway. Sometimes I feel if this was a full circle! No dissappoint or dissatisfaction with you. Somethings are meant to end, but I will always be thankful to my destiny that it gave me you. i do miss you in ways you could never imagine. And I have you with me in ways that no one can ever imagine.
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ReplyDeleteVery well written, Shreyas. And I think all of us have that one person in our lives we could say this about. What's important is, we understand that some people are meant to leave. There may not be a reason that you could accept, but you end up accepting it anyway. Sometimes, you think you could have made it work if the other person would try as much as you did. But then again, maybe they didn't want to! It gives you the most satisfaction when this person tells you that they realize they could have made it work but didn't try enough. And it makes you feel so much lighter when one day, suddenly, out of the blue, this person tells you that they're sorry! You might not want to forgive them, but you can make peace with the fact that they left for a reason, the reason being - there was someone better out there for both of you!! :)
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